CNY 2012

It's my year, dragon year~

Last year went to Penang for family trip, this year no where to go. But we have someone new in our family, haha.. Finally my 2nd bro got his special one. Lolx

Sunday night went KL for drinks with both of my bro. Can't believe that we actually finished up 3 bottles by only FOUR of us. OMG!! That's why this year Nian Chu 1, we spent pretty much time sleeping at home. Haha.. Cool, I love to hang out with my bro. Well, I went to my aunty's house this evening to meet most of my relatives. Quite tiring take care of my precious Mocha as he barks a lot! Headache~

Any plan for upcoming days? I have no ideas. But am thinking to go up to Genting with my babe, xuerou. Also, to have a look on the Doraemon thingy. I need to make a call before heading up for it. Free tickets needed! How good if I could bring along my small little Mocha to enjoy the cold weather up there?!

I feel quite numb to all these special occasions nowadays. Perhaps my mind is always thinking about work, work, and work! When did I become such a workaholic? I don't want to be like this but being forced to. Holidays needed badly! Need to release myself for while. But then, if I don't think about work, what's more I can think of? It's all about my future, have to work hard for it. I don't want to disappoint anyone! Always have to learn from my bro.

Anyway hope this year gonna be a better year! Hope that I can achieve something in this year. Happy dragon year to everyone! Gong hei fatt choy! =)

2012

Aha, I didn't realize that I had abandoned this page for quite long.

Until I read xuerou's post. Reading your post do made up my day too. =)

And I just realize she did comment on my previous post. Haha.. That was way some time ago.

No worries, something happened. But it is past, I will still move on.

Anyway it's year 2012 now. Happy new year!

Good news of the day: I got the Hennessy job! Wooohooo~

Meay and I are very happy about it. It is something that we really enjoy doing it and we've put so much effort for this project.

But something bothering me. Hmm...

I guess I am a bit emo. Haha..

Chinese New Year coming soon! Any plan? But I don't have much feelings on it.

Recent Christmas and New Year Eve celebration, I didn't feel much enjoying as well.

Not sure what happen to me, perhaps working life too stressed, and it makes me felt numb.

It's alright, have to work harder this year! All the best to all my friends! =)

丑陋

在刚过的星期五，我完成了我正式的第一份project。

但是event结束后，我并不觉得开心，因为我开始看见人性的丑陋。

原来电视剧里头的情景是会发生在真实的世界里。

我才加入将近七个月，没想到这么快我就开始看清某些人的真面目。

有些人起初对你不友善，至少你还看得见，而不像其他人心机那么重，表面对你好，可是在你背后却是另一个样子。

也许我太天真了吧！

我还以为我可以专心为我的未来打拼，如今看来我需要重新计划一番。

我不明白人为什么可以那么自私、那么残酷……

所有的人都很虚假，假到我无法相信。

不是所有人都会那么大方，真心地去教导你所有事情，你不知其实她在你背后会觉得你烦，觉得你什么都不会。

但他们却装得自己有多么的好，好得足以让你相信一切是真的。

事实是残酷的，我深信这一点。因为我差一点不能相信自己的耳朵，可是这一切确确实实都听进我的耳朵里。

对着这些人，我觉得很累。

人性险恶，我要如何预防？

但我应该庆幸，在短短的一晚里，总算让我看清这一切。

我更加明白了我不该轻易相信他人，也更加不可以随便对他人好，因为他们会利用这一点来获取对他们的利益。

为什么人不可以活得简单一些？为什么非要尔虞我诈，难道这样做会比较开心？

请容许我大喊，"Fuck you bitch! Go fuck yourself in the hell, fucking whore!!"

Break

Can I take a break? I really need a break.

My inner part feels imbalance. I am tired on both physically and mentally.

Not sure how to describe my feeling.

Listen to different people's said and stories. I cannot differentiate which is correct and which is wrong.

Why so mysterious? And why is it keep changing? Just fooling around?

It is unfair. But what to do?

I do not wish to give up so fast and easily. I tell myself that I need to prove to myself.

I can do it. Whatever it is, I will try my best to solve it.

But please give me time, I am only six months old in this company. Do not push me until I cannot breath anymore. While the rest being treat like a kindergarten children.

I am exhausted. Never work so hard like this before. Not that I did not work hard for previous company, just that this time I really put my effort in everything I do.

I want to fight for my future. I hope what I chosen is correct.

忙

从来，我都没像现在那么的忙……

早上做工，晚上也在做工。

这一次可说是我最努力的一次了，我真的很认真地去完成我的工作。

进工将近半年，我手头上的工作可说是已超过一般人所做的了。

不是想要炫耀，可是似乎真的太多了，尤其对一个还算新人的人。

已经连续三个月，我每天都在加班。

我不介意多做，我不计较，我告诉自己做多学多。

可是，我需要时间休息。

希望我的努力会被肯定，也希望我能拥有一定的成就。

一个人

一个人的周末……

今天一个人吃东西，一个人去剪头发，一个人下吉隆坡，一个人逛街……

我还蛮喜欢这样的。

这样让我觉得非常自由，因为我可以随意去我想去的地方。

虽然有时会觉得闷闷的，可是这种感觉还不错，似乎有着非常多的时间。

我也觉得额外轻松，也许太久没有属于我自己的周末了。

不过，晚上却觉得有点太闲，上线是唯一可做的事情。

才发现，原来我也可以很独立的。嘻嘻……

Mistake

Get away from family stress, but now getting even stressful on works.

Been working like a cow, non-stop doing the jobs.

Since the past two months, I finish work at 8 or 9 clock daily.

Hmm.. Today, I guess I am pretty tired, thus caused this mistake.

I feel very bad about myself for doing such mistake. Can't forgive myself.

I sent something to someone that I am not supposed to send. The worst part is that I can't recall back the message that had been sent!!

Oh God! Why this happened to me? Why am I so careless?

Although my boss never scold me on this, he still told me nicely to be more careful next time. I feel even guilty about myself. I feel very sorry. Stupid HAZEL!!

Secondly, I did not capture photos for the setup I did at Metropolitan College. Damn...

Should have taken by myself, why depends on others? When they don't even care. Sigh..

What's wrong with me? I keep thinking back on the mistakes that I did. Speechless.. Knock my head to the wall please..

What a day!