Stressed. Time getting less, where should I head to?
Until now, I haven't get any answers in my mind. Sigh...
How how how? Any jobs can intro to me?
I feel so panic. Resume not yet update. No recent passport-sized photo.
Most importantly, no idea on what I want to work. *damn*
Yet, still have many things that I wish to complete.
But without money, any of these is impossible to do.
Shit shit shit, please find me a job.
Forgive my broken english. I'm abit too tired today.
Kinda blur right now. And everything stuck in my head too.
Can't get them out. Why I feel so panic?
I'm like wasting a lot of time. Aiks.. What am I talking about?
How how how?
I started to regret on my decisions.
Decision when I chose this course. Decision on not further study.
Time can't revert back. What shall I do now?
Am I being too lack of self-confidence?
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Need A Break
Can the clock stop tick tock tick tock there?
I need a STOP! Time, please stop for a while, at least for a moment okay?
I need some time to sort out something.
I need some time to refresh my mind.
I need some time to cool down myself.
I need some time to figure out what to do next.
Most importantly, I need some time to breathe!
Please, please, please, stop it for a while.
I'm just like being in the middle of the ocean.
I have no directions.
The waves push me to left and right, front and backward, and even drown me deep into the sea.
Who's the fisherman that passby with his boat to save me from this?
I think too much. LOL
I need a STOP! Time, please stop for a while, at least for a moment okay?
I need some time to sort out something.
I need some time to refresh my mind.
I need some time to cool down myself.
I need some time to figure out what to do next.
Most importantly, I need some time to breathe!
Please, please, please, stop it for a while.
I'm just like being in the middle of the ocean.
I have no directions.
The waves push me to left and right, front and backward, and even drown me deep into the sea.
Who's the fisherman that passby with his boat to save me from this?
I think too much. LOL
Monday, March 22, 2010
坏心情
超级无敌差的心情……
我想这次会延续好久。
我是否自我压抑的太久了？
所以情绪才会瞬间爆发？
星期六绝对是不好的一天。
回头想想事发的经过，也许我有我的不对之处。
至少每次任何事情发生后，我会好好地反省自己。
但他们会这样吗？
算，我不和你们这些人计较！
有蛮久的一段时间，我都没像这次那么的生气。
真的连我都控制不到自己，他们真的过份了。
我的忍耐度是有极限的。
好了，事情告一段落。
只剩下一个月的时间，我需要从新开始。
我想这次会延续好久。
我是否自我压抑的太久了？
所以情绪才会瞬间爆发？
星期六绝对是不好的一天。
回头想想事发的经过，也许我有我的不对之处。
至少每次任何事情发生后，我会好好地反省自己。
但他们会这样吗？
算，我不和你们这些人计较！
有蛮久的一段时间，我都没像这次那么的生气。
真的连我都控制不到自己，他们真的过份了。
我的忍耐度是有极限的。
好了，事情告一段落。
只剩下一个月的时间，我需要从新开始。
Friday, March 12, 2010
Dead Bird
You know what, not long after I got home, my younger brother asks me to come out to have a look on something. So there I go, walk out to living room and go over to the carpet.
There's something on the carpet, from far I can't guess what it's at all, until I step closer and look into the things carefully. Gosh, I get shocked for a little while, because it looks like it's a incomplete dead body of a bird!
There's something looks like the claw of the bird, the beak and a wing (yes, one side of the wing), of course there's feathers as well. Eeeuuukkkkkkkk~ So disgusting larr!!!! It must be my mum's cat. Why the cat can eat things like this? *faint* Yucks!
Quite often, I see my mum's cat catches cockroach from outside and bring it back to my house. You know, I scare of cockroach leh.. Sometimes, the cat can bring back more than 3 cockroaches in one night. Of course, not in one shot. See, I think his catching skilsl is damn pro!
Between, I had seen cat ate lizard who stay on the wall, much higher than where the cat stood. And the cat aimed at the lizard gao gao, then the cat jumped and swallowed the lizard within few seconds. Eeeeeeeeeee.... I witnessed the whole process leh..
From today onwards, I think I have to separate my Mocha far far away from the cat. I don't want my Mocha to eat all those "live creatures".
There's something on the carpet, from far I can't guess what it's at all, until I step closer and look into the things carefully. Gosh, I get shocked for a little while, because it looks like it's a incomplete dead body of a bird!
There's something looks like the claw of the bird, the beak and a wing (yes, one side of the wing), of course there's feathers as well. Eeeuuukkkkkkkk~ So disgusting larr!!!! It must be my mum's cat. Why the cat can eat things like this? *faint* Yucks!
Quite often, I see my mum's cat catches cockroach from outside and bring it back to my house. You know, I scare of cockroach leh.. Sometimes, the cat can bring back more than 3 cockroaches in one night. Of course, not in one shot. See, I think his catching skilsl is damn pro!
Between, I had seen cat ate lizard who stay on the wall, much higher than where the cat stood. And the cat aimed at the lizard gao gao, then the cat jumped and swallowed the lizard within few seconds. Eeeeeeeeeee.... I witnessed the whole process leh..
From today onwards, I think I have to separate my Mocha far far away from the cat. I don't want my Mocha to eat all those "live creatures".
Confused
Confused, confused, I'm so confused about the web thingy!
I know nothing about the web hosting, domain renewal and bla bla bla....
What are these all shits? I have no idea how to differentiate it okay?!
There was this company A, who did printing and IT previously. So they helped us to design my company website and registered for the domain name. While the web hosting thingy, they sent me a web where as there were 2 packages to be chosen. And so I chose to pay for 2 years web hosting which cost me cheaper via credit card. And then, there were still something like maintain the web content and company emails, each of it has their own different login IDs and passwords and so. I was quite confused that time but I managed to get it right for the web content management and email login. Still, about the registered domain name, all the related datas and stuffs, I really don't know about it.
And after one year which is now, the domain name is going to expire. And the company A is no longer in doing IT stuffs which they are only focusing in printing job. 2 months before the domain expire, I received a notification from company A. So I contacted them regrading this matter but they informed me that they don't do IT job anymore, thus they will pass me to another IT company. After few days, this fella from company B called me. I told him about the renewal and the search engine thingy. He explained to me through the phone telling me this and that, bla bla bla.... Talked very fast and the line was sucks, so I manged to get a little bit. He said he's not in KL now, but he will follow up this and send his colleague to meet up with me to discuss about the search engine thingy.
Right after this, I waited for his called or anything. Oh ya, EMAIL, he said he will email me! WTF, I got nothing at all after few weeks. I called up again, he told me that he needs to transfer all the details from previous company in order to proceed with it. Okay, I gave him time again. Wait, waiting and waited!! Another week past I guess, I called up again. This time he told me that the particular company for this domain renewal doesn't allow him to renew. Don't ask me why, I don't know. And he said he already submitted to that company, and will see how, he will get back to me again.
Then, here it goes. The domain name is going to expire next week, 18th of March. So what did I get? Nothing, no feedback. I'm gonna call this fella tomorrow and perhaps, I'm going to screw him up!! WTF, drag my time until so long and nothing has done. Between, I called up my friend to enquire about this. He said it takes some time to renew the same domain name after it's expired because others would have used that particular domain name! Oh gosh, he advises me to call this company, get help from them. May be have to create new one, trasnfer everything to here, but how about the design and layouts of the web? And not forgetting I paid RM400++ for 2 years web hosting wei!!! Damn it!! All messed up! Anyone could help me?
Another messed up thing, the account thingy. Alllaaaaaaa~~~~~~~ I'm not auditor or accountant please! Even the basic account knowledge that I learnt in form 4 and form 5 couldn't help, I forgot everything okay? I'm not meant to be an accountant seriously. I hate it so much. But guess what, I have to call up the firm to enquire something about their charges? Why they still need to charge us audit fee every month huh even we decided not to let them in charge of our case. Sigh.... Fine, I will call tomorrow, don't give much problems anymore.
IT and audit are not my expert fields. Thanks.
One of my ways to distress: shop, shop, shop! This ain't cool right? Somehow shop makes me feel good. LOL.. Else, let's do something to release stress? Haha.. Going to beach larrrr... So long never go to any beaches. I miss the touch of the sand, sound of the sea and the windy atmosphere, NOT forgetting the SUN! But I guess I never see any sunrise or sunset? Hmmmm.. Should go should go. Make a plan for me please! Arigato~
Psssttt, I spot nice dresses in this boutique's blog, which is located at Bangsar. Argh, feel like wanna have a visit there! But don't think Mr Boo allows. >.< Sad.
I know nothing about the web hosting, domain renewal and bla bla bla....
What are these all shits? I have no idea how to differentiate it okay?!
There was this company A, who did printing and IT previously. So they helped us to design my company website and registered for the domain name. While the web hosting thingy, they sent me a web where as there were 2 packages to be chosen. And so I chose to pay for 2 years web hosting which cost me cheaper via credit card. And then, there were still something like maintain the web content and company emails, each of it has their own different login IDs and passwords and so. I was quite confused that time but I managed to get it right for the web content management and email login. Still, about the registered domain name, all the related datas and stuffs, I really don't know about it.
And after one year which is now, the domain name is going to expire. And the company A is no longer in doing IT stuffs which they are only focusing in printing job. 2 months before the domain expire, I received a notification from company A. So I contacted them regrading this matter but they informed me that they don't do IT job anymore, thus they will pass me to another IT company. After few days, this fella from company B called me. I told him about the renewal and the search engine thingy. He explained to me through the phone telling me this and that, bla bla bla.... Talked very fast and the line was sucks, so I manged to get a little bit. He said he's not in KL now, but he will follow up this and send his colleague to meet up with me to discuss about the search engine thingy.
Right after this, I waited for his called or anything. Oh ya, EMAIL, he said he will email me! WTF, I got nothing at all after few weeks. I called up again, he told me that he needs to transfer all the details from previous company in order to proceed with it. Okay, I gave him time again. Wait, waiting and waited!! Another week past I guess, I called up again. This time he told me that the particular company for this domain renewal doesn't allow him to renew. Don't ask me why, I don't know. And he said he already submitted to that company, and will see how, he will get back to me again.
Then, here it goes. The domain name is going to expire next week, 18th of March. So what did I get? Nothing, no feedback. I'm gonna call this fella tomorrow and perhaps, I'm going to screw him up!! WTF, drag my time until so long and nothing has done. Between, I called up my friend to enquire about this. He said it takes some time to renew the same domain name after it's expired because others would have used that particular domain name! Oh gosh, he advises me to call this company, get help from them. May be have to create new one, trasnfer everything to here, but how about the design and layouts of the web? And not forgetting I paid RM400++ for 2 years web hosting wei!!! Damn it!! All messed up! Anyone could help me?
Another messed up thing, the account thingy. Alllaaaaaaa~~~~~~~ I'm not auditor or accountant please! Even the basic account knowledge that I learnt in form 4 and form 5 couldn't help, I forgot everything okay? I'm not meant to be an accountant seriously. I hate it so much. But guess what, I have to call up the firm to enquire something about their charges? Why they still need to charge us audit fee every month huh even we decided not to let them in charge of our case. Sigh.... Fine, I will call tomorrow, don't give much problems anymore.
IT and audit are not my expert fields. Thanks.
One of my ways to distress: shop, shop, shop! This ain't cool right? Somehow shop makes me feel good. LOL.. Else, let's do something to release stress? Haha.. Going to beach larrrr... So long never go to any beaches. I miss the touch of the sand, sound of the sea and the windy atmosphere, NOT forgetting the SUN! But I guess I never see any sunrise or sunset? Hmmmm.. Should go should go. Make a plan for me please! Arigato~
Psssttt, I spot nice dresses in this boutique's blog, which is located at Bangsar. Argh, feel like wanna have a visit there! But don't think Mr Boo allows. >.< Sad.
