假期

每当假期降临, 我是多么的开心和不开心.

开心的原因是我不需要工作.

不开心的原因是我知道我和她又会发生摩擦.

我多么希望这是属于我一个人的假期.

我宁可一个人待在家.

原本, 我还有个念头是打算一早就驾车出外, 当着我是有上班的.

基于我今天打算整理我的房间, 所以念头被取消.

可是...

我真的顶不顺了.

她又发神经了.

为什么?

我不明白.

无论我做任何事情, 都是不对的.

无论我出去或待在家, 也是错的.

无论我有没有错, 我一定是错的.

无论我怎样, 我都被说是自私的.

好啦, 好啦, 你是永远对的, 我是永远错的.

是不是永远错的我, 要被当着像囚犯那样看待才可以呢?

我真的觉得不好受.

每次接近放工时间, 我都不想回家.

回到家, 我又会坐立不安, 想着我该怎样才能避免冲突.

我真的是超级无敌不想回去.

这个家令人我恐惧, 令我有阴影, 令我超有压力, 令我超级不舒服.

唯一想让我回去的是我的狗狗.

天, 为什么你要这样对我?

谁, 又可以救我呢?

我心里承受的压力真的很大, 我不知道会不会在那么的一天, 万一我真的受不住了, 我会做出怎样的事情.

我 想 离 开 这 个 家 !

你 把 我 逼 得 太 紧 了 . . .

=(

所有人的平安夜都是开心的, 只有我的是伤心的.

你看扁我... 不觉得我有能力...

别人都是宝, 只有我是家中的那堆草.

你把我当成人么?

我像是你的奴隶, 还是监狱的囚犯?

或是你的出气筒?

你一点也不相信我.

原来, 在你眼中我是那么的不中用...

你永远觉得我不乖.

你知道吗? 我讨厌你, 如同你不喜欢我.

对不起, 但我觉得错的不是我.

在你的世界里, 对的永远都是你, 错的永远都是我.

这个世界, 本来就没有公平的存在, 是我太天真而已.

犹豫不决

这个现象持续了很久, 到底什么时候才会有结果?

明明做了决定, 今天又被动摇了.

虽然还未知道实况, 但条件应该还蛮吸引的.

怎么办呢?

无论如何, 两边同时进行吧!

可能是因为她看得出我的优缺点吧, 总觉得她的看法可能没错.

反反复复想了很多次, 真的不知该相信谁好.

为什么我好像中了邪一样? 好难离开哦! 一直在纠缠不清.

老天爷, 这是什么意思? 你要让我留下还是离开呢?

请清楚地告诉我吧! 不要再给暗示了, 我猜不透, 力不从心..

再这样下去, 我会疯掉.

留下的话, 这是一场赌注. 赢或输, 是未知之数.

离开的话, 需要重新来过.

到底, 结局会是如何?

人心难侧

听到很多关于此公司里的人的负面消息, 确实令我有点不知所措.

但终究觉得也不是件坏事, 对于我的去留, 至少我有了决定.

知人知面不知心, 暂且对我不利的事情还未发生, 难免以后不会发生.

严重不公平的现象出现在这儿.

早知道也许是件好事.

每一天在注意着每个人的言行举止, 到底谁是真谁是假, 又或者哪一个才是她/他的真面目呢?

或, 我最相信的其实是我最不该相信的?!

不认为这么做对她/他有好处.

还是我的疑心太重? 又或者是我太容易相信人? 还是他们太奸诈?

继续留下的好与不好, 我相信坏处比较多吧!

我应该立刻离开烦恼的地方, 烦恼会令人烦躁, 烦躁令人心情不好, 心情不好会影响健康, 健康坏了有钱也没用!

这道理对吗?

我不能肯定自己的决定, 谁可以让我肯定自己?

接下来的两个月, 是我人生重要的时刻, 决定于我的工作方向, 若一切顺利, 顺利离开, 顺利找到新工作, 那么农历新年后就会是我的新开始.

万一有任何差错, 我想我这一下就如此了吧?

我是不是应该勇于踏前一步, 给自己机会, 尝试新东西呢?

希望我的决定不会错... 虽然真的很担心....

Congratulations!

Congratulations to Myvistreet with 1st runner up in best car club category and William with 2nd runner up in VIP category!! Freaking excited with it~ Everyone was so surprise. LOL!

Heard another news about him, bad bad news, damn freaking angry about it. Although it's not related to me, still I'm not cool with it. Fully disappointed in you!

MC today. Just took pills, will sleep in a short while.

Deepavali this Friday, am not having holiday. Sigh.. sad case wei!

I want my holiday!

Physically and mentally not good.

Sick

Bank Tender Project is awarded to us.

Dunno I should feel happy or sad.

Working like a mad dog even I'm sick, fever, sore throat, flu, dizzy......

Feel like wanna give up, can't stand it.

While busy working in one matter, another pop up again with problems.

Have to stop what's on hand and to solve the new pop out problem.

What the fuck is this, I damn hate bank's renovation works.

When only I can leave this place? Time please pass faster, so that I can begin with another new working life.

I know everyone is fighting hard for this project, but am so sorry, seriously I don't think it's something which belonged to me.

Faster end all this shit!!!!

Time

I need more time please.

Feel tired after work and I have not enough time to finish my own stuffs.

Started to feel bored everyday when I go back to office and see the same faces.

Exhausted being involved in this look-simple-yet-complicated environment, in term of human relationships.

Strengthless and heartless towards this company. I'm speechless.

Perhaps, wrong timing.

Where I belong to? Come save me or wake me up! Thanks.

差

今天我的心情超级无敌差! 又或者该说,十分糟糕!

太多pending的东西了, 可是又因为某些事而浪费了我一整天的时间.

我真的好累, 好压力... 有点透不过气...

如果时间可以暂时停止, 那该多好?

今天出门差一点变成沙丁鱼, 心情不好时真不该让自己驾车出去.

为什么怎么睡也睡不好? 这是现代都市人的病吗?

呐喊, 我的心在拼命地呐喊, 可是喊不出来.

可以去海边一趟吗? 可以去旅行吗? 一天也好...

感觉有一点就快要疯掉了.

释放不到疲累感, 也释放不到压力与烦恼... 这还是人吗?

下星期要处理银行tender的project, 真不爽!

我讨厌装修的工作, 不是我的专长, 又要逼着自己去做.

我真的不喜欢这间公司的purchasing, 别期望我会长久留下.

说是purchasing又不算是purchasing, 反而是sales coordinator吧!

昨晚我说, 我很想去喝酒, 今晚我也有同样的想法, 虽然我很累.

下个星期应该会忙到不像人样, 希望我不会爆发.

原来

我的心在落大雨,甚至连我整个人也想落大雨.

焦虑,不安,心烦,低落,不知如何是好,我不清楚我到底是怎样.

今早的面试,是有史以来令我感觉到超级无敌高的挫败感!

我第一次在面试中表现得那么的紧张和僵硬,根本不知道我在做些什么.

我一直以为我自己表现得蛮不错,还不至于太差的程度,谁知这一趟真的大受打击.

或许我真的不够好,可是我难以接受,还是我太自以为是呢?

很多时候,我都会缺乏自信心,明明我搞得定的东西,我会对自己自我怀疑.

一连去了三间公司面试,但似乎还没找到适合的.

是我太挑剔,还是我不信任我自己?

或者,我适应了现公司的环境和人事,我害怕去尝试新事物?

我很烦,烦到我想逃离这一切,可以吗?

过渡期,我过不了. 怎样过?

巫先生,我想见到你的脸,见到你,我会感得比较好.

可惜你不在我身边...

我只好用眼泪去发泄我的情绪,我又要把这一切放在心里面,关上锁头.

原来我是脆弱的...

Decision

- Decision made -
Spoke to my manager on last Wednesday.
She insisted to ask me to stay.

- Considering -
(just wanted to be nice to her, and try not to reject directly)
I'm sorry.

Been thinking over and over again.
Still, can't change my mind.
Letter prepared.

Today's morning.
Just went out from Doris's room to print out the letter.
Put the letter into envelope.
Thinking when to give it.
Suddenly, she asked me.
Thus, I straight away handed it to her.
Gosh, timing just ngam ngam.
Good to be like this too, I need not to think when to submit it.

During marketing meeting, she told me she will not submit to boss first, in case if I change my mind again, she would like to return the letter to me.
LOL!!

I know she really want me to stay.
But, sorry, I made you disappointed.
I will not change my mind.
Decision made.
This is not the place that I supposed to be with.
Bye!

Job hunting starts again!
In 2 weeks time.
Can I do it?
I'm going back to event.
Friends, support me?
I must send out my resume tonight!
Go go go!

Dilemma

I'm in a serious dilemma. I can't decide whether I wanna stay or leave.

It's my 2nd month of doing this job in this company. But I slowly find out that I don't really satisfy with the standard and rules of this company. It's out of my expectation. Not like what I been told during my interview. Some minor changes do affect a lot!

Firstly, the annual leave is too little, it's only 8 days. I've been asking around for their opinions, all feedback are "It's too little!" Another thing I heard about is something about Chinese New Year. The official public holidays that my company takes for CNY is only 2 days. Due to my boss has great believe in Feng Shui stuffs, so normally he will reopens the company much later like "Nian Chu Liu" or whatever. Meaning we will have 4 more days off right, but SAD to say that it will deduct from our ANNUAL LEAVE! What on earth is that? Isn't that supposed to be some FREE off day for the employees? But why to deduct it again? Not to mention the annual leave is ALREADY TOO LITTLE!

Secondly, regarding the Public Holidays, the lady boss is too "obey" the Labour Law which give us 10 days of holidays + recent announced Malaysia Day on 16th September 2010. All together is only 11 days. No extra holidays. Guess what, I have to work on 1st of January. Crazy people! I think it's the only company who work on New Year whereas all are enjoying their own sweet time. What's the point to work on that day where no one actually working? No point and it's wasting our time and petrol. Shit!

Thirdly, about the Over Time Claim. Note, no money claims for it. You can only claim for leave. I was being told that OT start counting after 6pm. Who knows, it starts counting after 6pm ONLY when you're working ON SITE. If you are to work late at office, no way! After 9pm only will counting for your OT. What does it means? I'm not consider working if I work in office at 8pm right?! Obviously, it's more practical on marketing department which they have to OT often for site inspection and setup. It's not really fair to others as the rest will not entitle to get that much leave as they are.

Next, Saturday is supposed to be a working day but they cancelled it. If there's any rushing job, we will have to go back to office like normal day. What I thought was most of the companies work half day on Saturday, but it seems like my company is a little different, they work whole day on Saturday. Please, I can't deal with it. I want both of my weekends.

I'm being deducted one day salary out of my total paid due to I started working on 2nd of August. And funny to say that 1st of August is Sunday. Thus, need not me to say more, what do you think?

In terms of job scope, I actually handle it quite well but in fact, I don't really like it. Swt! I find out I hate to deal with sub-con when there's some kind of situation happens. I'm the middle person who totally not into the situation and try to deal with my supplier? End up, I have to call and recall again, to repeat to my manager and negotiate with my supplier again. Over and over again, tiring of that process. Another thing, when one same person who quoted you the pricing for few times, but getting no job from you, what's the sequences? You know, complaints will come, they might reject to quote for you too. Getting new sub-con to quote, but when it really awarded, you didn't give a chance to new one, it caused me in troubles for your high gross profit.
Sigh.. What to do? I'm not the decision maker.

I really like the environment and get along well with all my colleagues. But the problem is, I discover a lot of things that I don't wish to. Company is now having ISO, if I suddenly escape half way, I will delay their process too. Plus I feel so guilty and sorry to my manager, she put high hopes on me. I know she gotta be disappointed if I leave.

I know I complaint a lot. But it's just what I felt inside and the only way to release all these out is to blog. I'm seriously stressing myself out regarding this issue. I'm thinking about it from day to night. Aiks.. If you were me, what would you do?

Do I deserve something better?

Emo

Feeling blue & down .... ...
What to do?!
Having troubles again, on my works ... ...
Urgghh... ... ... ... ... Why is this happened again?
I think I need a whole new plan.
I'm just get stuck! Sigh ...
Emo ing Emo ing Emo ing Emo ing Emo ing Emo ing Emo ing

Stressed Out ...

I have stress at works.
I have stress at home too!

Ain't home supposed to be a place where I can relax myself and put away all my stressfulness?

恋爱通告

王力宏首部电影导演之作 ~ 恋爱通告
我喜欢王力宏之余,这部电影本身也还蛮不错的!
不过,我不怎么喜欢开头那的冷笑话,觉得怪怪的.
整体还蛮搞笑的,另外也感人!
融合了音乐,爱情,及幽默元素.

看完电影,总觉得这电影的一部分是王力宏本人的内心心声.
知音难寻! 也许他也希望自己能过着普通男孩的日子,拥有爱情.
整部电影也播放着王力宏的新专辑歌曲.

我也拿到了了预购的新专辑,好好听哦!
最爱"你不知道的事",这是最好听的!

Job Hunting

It's the 2nd last week of July, and soon August will arrive. Being driver for my elder bro for past 2 weeks, this week still with him, but his turn to be my driver by using my car. Fyi, my elder bro had a small car accident 3 weeks back, he kissed Mercedes back. Car was sent to repair and claimed insurance, should can get his car this week. Meanwhile, my younger bro's car almost done too!

Been together with my elder and younger bro for 3 weeks wherever we go. LOL!! Chance to see my bro's working lifestyle. Rush here and there, one day few appointments. Today I went for an interview, for the position of sales & marketing. Well, got this contact from my friend. The company is a startup company dealing with pet industry, they have online portal for pet magazine, pet store and stuffs. Due to they are still a startup company, the place I went for interview is still a temporary place for them. Hmm.. Feel a little insecure for it as they really have nothing phsycal yet. I didn't really ask most of the questions that I wanted, 'cause I don't think I will go for it. Nevermind, just a try! Next, will be purchasing. 2nd interview in Jeffe's current company. Good luck to me again!

Toi Toi flew to Korea edy! So nice leh~ Must post lot and lotsa photos. Be safe and have fun there! See you when you're back!

Desires

There are a few things that I wish to do recently.

First, going for a bicycle ride session at Taman Pertanian. I never been to Taman Pertanian. I want to get a closer touch with the mother of nature. I want to be in this lovely earth doing something that I never do for so long - cycling. Wondering do I still able to cycling? LOL!! Would like to wake up early in the morning to do something healthy and to view the green environment, the trees and plants, sunlight or even the insects. Of course I don't touch the insects. =P Being too long in the city surrounded by buildings, cars, pollutions, crowded humans, and etc. I want to get a piece of my own silence. I want to breathe the fresh air and stay under the morning sunlight. I want to sweat a lot. I want to do exercise. But this gotta wait another couple weeks I guess.

See the green environment! Feel great about it! I wish I can bring my Mocha along.

Second, I want to go back to my beloved high school, CHS with all my lovely volleyball-mates! I want to have a great volleyball session with all of them. I miss the time where I used to stay back and practise volleyball with them. They are arrangging it but seems like it's a little too hard to get everyone together. Sigh.... Every person's schedule is different, so have to really plan for it. Oh, my jersey is keeping too long inside my wardrobe. Hehe.. I'm No.3!

Third, I want to go to Genting Highlands again! It's been a while since the last time I went there. Forgotten when already. But I wish to have a walk there, enjoy the cold wind blowing towards your face. The cool air just makes me feel refreshing. Don't know when can I go there again.

I seem a little depressed this week because my hubby is not with me as usual during weekdays, and so do my son. My little cute boy is with my hubby. I want to hug my cute little boy. My job hunting problem haven't solve yet. Argh... Today I find something that I interested but I don't fit their requirements. Ish... Anyone want to hire me please?

Besides, Saturday please come faster! I want to attend the Pet World Malaysia 2010. In order to get rid all of my depression, unsolved problems and so on, the only thing I want to see is all those lovely and adorable furkids out there!!

I Miss My Son

Mocha followed his daddy to Perak yesterday night.

Hmm.. Wondering why would I allow him to follow his daddy? I also don't know. Haha.. May be it's time for him to stay with his daddy once in a while.

But I really miss him so much! Wondering will my son miss me too? Wondering what is he doing?

Friday, please come faster! I want to see my Mocha, I want to hug him!!

Mocha, mummy miss you so much! =)

Weekend

Another weekend gone~ Hmm.. What did I do during my weekends?

Saturday morning went back to office and to a customer's house to take measurements. Dragged until 3pm only reached Danny's house. Planned to wash my car by my own at his house. Who know ended up me, my hubby and his daddy, 3 of us who washed it together. To be exact, his daddy did most of the jobs. Furthermore, still helped me to polish my car as my car paint is already faded long long time ago due to park near to the painting area. Can't imagine how rough is my paint right? Sigh... Sad to touch it. Will need to save money for repaint.

Night time, movvviieeee time~~~~ Argh.. Finally, Toy Story 3 came!!! It's really really nice to watch!! I like bulleyes. Haha.. Watched it with Toi & Keat, Alex & Sam, Hoong & Sandy, CJ, Jimmy and Patt. I want to keep DVD for this movie.

Sunday, I went to Subang Empire for a walk. Hmm.. This place is not big, from one end to another end is too short. It's like I can walk the whole mall within half an hour. Petsmore over there is just too small. It looks very packed. Ground floor is something like food court. All the foods and beverages shops are over there. Not too bad, quite crowded and seems okay to me.

Spotted one shop called "Material" selling some creative stuffs like calculator, photo frame, note books, mouse and etc. I like one of their mouse which is in white, black or orange color. I like the shape 'cause it's very nice to hold plus the outlook is quite trendy. Black one looks very cool and white one looks just so nice! I don't like the orange color. Price is RM29 if I'm not mistaken. I didn't buy it due to my current mouse (Samsung brand) still functioning real good. Next time ba~~

Charles & Keith over there is big compared to the one in One Utama and I spotted one pair of heels. Haha.. RM150 something, am going to try it next month and if it fits me well, I want to take it home!! Oh no, I'm so into heels again.

Forgot to mention about the Toy 'r' us in Subang Empire, it's big! I saw a lot of toys from Toy Story 3!! I like the bulleyes doll with Jessie. But it's too expensive. Haha.. Too long never been into toy shop, was crazy about it. And finally found R35 in there but my second brother doesn't seem interested anymore. Nevermind, wait for September. Hehe..

Evening time, a walk with my Mocha and friends at Desa Park City. This is our usual Sunday evening programs, a MUST for every week unless raining larrr... This time we had our Zai Zai with his owner, Jimmy. First time hangeg out with them. Haha.. Nice~ Met quite a number of schnauzer too. But most of them don't look good. Some are either too fat or too thin, or the size is too big. Only one or two are okay. But most of them are boy boy. So hard to find a girlfriend for my son!! I guess I will need to have a female schnauzer in future (not so soon!!).

Jealousy

Curious about my title? Well, are you thinking that I'm jealous because of some sort of girls approaching my man or what-so-ever? Haha.. Hell no!!

To be exact, I'm a bit regretted that I didn't pursue my studies. 'Causing that I have no chance to study abroad with my coursemates. That's so so so sad! I'm so so so so jealous of them getting the chance to go overseas. Even if I could afford to go for vacations to western countries in future, still I would never ever have a chance to experience the study lifestyle with a bunch of friends in different country, different lifestyle, different cultures and stuffs.

Of course, No Pain, No Gain. Well, I heard my friend saying that if you're applied for KOJADI loan, let's say you loan for 35k, the amount you have to pay back after you complete your studies in UK is RM500 per month. Some will think RM500 per month is okay right if you only need to pay for 4-5 years, just like paying car instalments. But what if it's for 10 years? When I heard 10 years, I get really really shocked. Okay fine.

Although the interest is really high but no doubt that it's a great experience to explore different stuffs. Everytime when I look at their recent uploaded photos in UK, I really really really hope that I could be with them together. Hmmm, okay, no looking back. Only thing I can do is to earn more money and make my dreams come true. Lotsa countries that I wish to go, haha...

And, yea, cracking my head on my resume. How to describe my current jobscope? Ish.. I hate to update my resume. Job hunting is time to start again. Sien about it lorr.. Don't know what kind of company I will be in? Don't know how's the environment? Don't know how's the colleagues around? Don't know if I can cope with it? A lot of questions in my mind but I have no decision or ideas yet which get me really panic. What if no one want to hire me? What if I can do the job well? Oh shit, lost control, lost control, don't think so much.

I know I can handle it. Sometimes just thinking too much. Just need my friends to support me. Talking about friends, referring to my high school classmates, I feel bad about myself. I'm the one with lower qualifications among all. At least all of them get a degree cert. I'm not saying that they make comparisons, just feel that I'm not-so-comfortable sometimes when we discuss about job opportunities or something related although they really feel nothing about it. Sorry about that, I just feel bad towards myself. However, at least I have my loved one with me is more than everything. =)

PD Trip

I'm late to blog. Haha.. Sorry about that, I'm lazy. =P

28th May 2010 Wesak Day
Was planning to go "Buddhist Temple" with mum but ended up slept till too late. Missed it. Mum said next year must go 'coz there were a lot of nice vegetarian food. Hehe.. Okay, I went Sg. Wang and Time Square with my hubby. Walked over to Lot 10 again, took our brunch at the food court. Crowded day. From 2pm we walked till 5pm sth, our legs are tired! Haha.. Feeling good about it 'coz it had been really really long time never walked like this. Miss those days with my friends. Bought a maxi dress for myself and toi as her birthday gift. Bought a long skirt and a pair of flat. =) Comfort flat I got this time, love it so much. Will be back to the shop "Step" again for more flats and heels. It won't hurt my feet.

Found a small tiny paper bag (does it called paper bag?!) with bear cartoons on it. Cute! Folded the maxi dress in really really small size and squeezed really hard into the paper bag. Oh yea, successful! But toi was unable to put it back. Haha.. Nvm, I helped!

29th - 30th May 2010
Went to Port Dickson with Myvistreet members: Me, Hubby, Keat, Toi, Hoong, Sany, Yu Zhang, GF (what's her name actually? anyone know? I shall ask Yu Zhang next time), Tan, Sheri, Patt, William, Eddie, CJ, Andrew and Hong Sheng. Did I miss out anyone? Haha..

Thousand years never go PD since I was really young. Still remember that time my dad brought me to the middle of the sea and I felt so scared. Oh, we brought our little turtle to there too. But eventually it gone missing in the sea. Hahahhahahaha.. Probably it died. I'm sorry, not meant to do so, still young.

The whole journey is all about eat, eat and eat. We made steamboat and BBQ, ate from day to night. Arghhh... Stomach full, don't know if I gained weight or not? Hmmm... I would say it's a great one but personally prefer trip that can go around the places because I love to walk around rather than staying at the apartment. Oh, the apartment's facilities quite sucks. They cheated me, NO wi-fi at all, what's for I borrowed my younger bro's lappie to there. Wasted! Still, I enjoyed staying together with a bunch of people like them. Feel good about it! They are all hilarious~ Hehe...

Very soon, 2nd day arrived. Time to say goodbye. We went to the beachside to take photos. Know what, this is ONLY what I called as BEACH!!! The scenery is so damn nice, feel like wanna jump into the sea though I don't know how to swim. Lol... The sea and sand is much more clean than the one near our apartment. Aiks.......... Nvm, at least I know there's this place. Okay, enough~ On the way back, I straight took nap inside car, too tired, can't tahan dy.

Evening, it's time for a walk again with my boi~ Mocha Lim. Haha.. Went to Desa Park City with hubby, my son, toi, Keat, Sabrina, Eddie, William, Patt, Yu Zhang. Met a small schnauzer baby there named Chaser (don't know spell correct anot). Hmm.. His mum kept praising my boi very handsome leh... WoW~ Am so proud of it!! Haha.. Seem like quite a lot of people like my Mocha! Happy-nya~ Gonna bring him out again this Sunday. I wanna invite some of the schnauzer babies too. Hopefully they can come out together.

All pics credited to Toi, grabbed from her FB. Hehe..

When we first arrived at our apartment, Glory Beach Apartment.

Everyone were busy checking out the apartment.

The view from our balcony.

Tom Yam Steamboat, yum yum~ Thanks Toi for the recipe! Hehe..

Busy eating.

Hang out at the beach side near our apartment. They were playing my hubby's precious boat. Lolz.. Unfortunately the boat got sot-ed after kena water in the "motherboard" or whatever.

Sausage advertisement! Want some? Ask from Danny. XD

Hubby & Me. I look thin in this pic! ^0^

Mr. Danny Boo with his precious Boat!

Group photo. Why only me (one girl) alone in the pic? Where's the rest?! Nearly can't see my face. >.<

Panaroma shot from Sony TX-5 (model betul ah?) I want one too!! Amazing~

This is THE REAL BEACH!! Love it!

All their wifey - super precious baby car~ *Like*

Pic of the day. The NeRd me~ Aha... No comment..

Excited

Tomorrow is Thursday, my darling is coming back! =)

Great, gonna end tomorrow faster, and horrraaayyyyy, Friday is holidays~

Planning to KL on Friday. Let's hunt for something. Hehe..

And yea, the most exciting part, that I'm looking forward to - - - -> Port Dickson on Saturday!

Can't wait for it! =P

And, past 12am already, HAPPY BIRTHDAY XUE ROU!!

Have a blast one. May all your dreams come true! Stay pretty, healthy and happy always~ ^0^

3D Penguin Cake

Outing with High School Besties

Date: 16052010 (Saturday)
Time: 8.30pm
Venue: Full House, Sunway Pyramid
Attendees: Hazel Lim, Danny Boo, See Mun, Marcus Lim, Whitney Koh, Chee Boon, Yong Khee, Bruce

Had fun with them, chit chatting and play around with all the stuffs, and not forgetting take pictures. Haha.. Ooopss, all the stuffs are supposed to be sold but most of the customers take it as toys. Hehe..

Special guest appeared on the night, Sook Yee, my classmate as well. Super long nver saw her although she lives at Puchong too. Lolz..

See Mun going to fly to UK tomorrow! So does Lyn! Didn't get to meet Lyn. Sigh.. Sorry babe, I am too tired. Will wait for you to come back and hang out again. To both of you, my dearest See Mun and Lyn, all the best and take care over there! Though only 4 months time. Haha..

一路顺风!


The ladies: Khee . Xuan . Hazel . Mun. Yee

*Like*

*Like*
New hair cut makes my face looks even more childish. Aiks...

The three of us! Ribbon sisters~ LOL

Nerds are in the house!

Anything inside?!

Group Photo I

Group Photo II

Group Photo III

Group Photo IV
All the princes and princess here! =P

Thanks for the wonderful night!

After that, headed to Puchong IOI for Shrek. Nice movie.

Am waiting for Toy Story 3!!!!

Double Twoss

Finally I have my very little own sweet time to blog about the past. Yea I was busy over the past weekends. Hehe.. Because it was my big day~ ^0^

Well, I am officially 22 now although still feel that I'm not. Haha..

On the date of my big day itself, my elder bro actually asked me out to celebrate my birthday. Lolx.. Just a simple outing at Aloha for happy hours with his friends. Fyi, entrance fee is RM30 oer head, and you'll get a bottle of Carlsberg. After you finish your first bottle, you are entitled to redeem another bottle of Carlsberg by paying RM1 for each with your first empty bottle. So as you can see, they will just keep redeeming 2nd, 3rd, 4th and so on. Of course, I drank only 3rd bottle, haha.. Too full already. I'm not Carlsberg type drinker. =P

After 9pm, my darling came and fetched me to 2nd round. It was friday night, of course must have a TT with Myvistreet. This time located at Cova Square, Kota Damansara. Reached there about 10pm, didn't expect any celebration. One thing on my mind was to eat something to fill my half empty stomach. I was a little sleepy at that point due to the alcohol effect. Oh, that day was a tired working day for me too. My younger brother got quite drunk too. Haha..

Then, I remembered I was sms-ing with friends. Suddenly, out of nowhere, and I really never realized Andrew Wong was standing behind me, until he suddenly held a cake and walked towards me. Hahahahhaha.. I got a surpriseeee here~ I really didn't know what was happening. Haha.. With my a little blur condition, listened to the birthday songs that sang by them, made a wish, blew the candle and took pictures with them. Argh.... So sweet of you all~

I am really really surprise with it and thanks a billion to all of you who spent me the cake. It means a lot to me! Especially to Keat and Xue Rou, I know you both were the main planners for this, thanks for everything. The cake tastes good too~ Not forgetting others like Ken, Janice, Andrew, Eric, Jimmy, CJ.. Oooopsss, I can't remember all. Sorry~ Anyway thanks a lot!


The one on right is my younger brother. Oppss, smile till can't see my eyes. XD

See, my younger brother also smile till so happy. Haha..



Credits to Mr. Keat who edited for me. Arigato~ *make a wish* I love this picture the most.

The cake.

Of course, not forgetting our group photos!!



End of story for 14th May 2010.



Continues celebration on 15th May 2010.

Venue: Poppy, KL

I have to say sorry about it where I change the venue to Poppy again. Don't wish that too. Wanted to try Phuture, but due to some financial problems, of course not from me ya.. (some of the friends) Anyway, still enjoying the night and got to know a few new girl friends. Was dancing on the couch. Lol.. I admitted that I was a little high that time but was pulling by the girls to go up there. Hehe.. Sometimes humans do get a little wild right? Hahahahha.. Thanks to Yu Zhang, Hoong & GF, Keat, Heng and Armers. I forgot the girls' names. @.@

Yu Zhang spent me a glass of special drinks at the very last minute, AK47 if I'm not mistaken. Great, taste sweet. I was okay before that, but I vomitted after I got in car. Don't worry, I winded down the window and vomitted, kena the outside of car only. Haha.. Sorry to biiii, dirty your car. Paiseh paiseh~ I enjoyed the night, indeed.

-End of story-


Continues story on 16th May 2010.

Slept till 12pm something, I woke up, fed my Mocha and did something. Surprise that I didn't hang over but bii got hang over like hell. I back to sleep later on until 2.30pm. The more you sleep, the more tired you get. So I decided to wake up. Woke up, went Klang, ta pao Bak Kut Teh (see, I still got the mood to eat Bak Kut Teh at 3pm plus, wakakkaka...) and went Desa Park City. Brought my son for a walk with Ms. Brownie. =)

Night time, I had a small celebration with both my high school best friends. Only two of the were able to make it. The rest were not free. Nevermind, still thanks to Khai Chuan and Desmond. Purposely came into Puchong celebrated with me, bought me a cake and spent me Pappa Rich. A small little thing like this will make me feel happy, more than enough. Thanks~ Appreciate it.

My 2nd cake. Hehe..


You thought that this is the end already right? Guess what, not yet, Mun Mun just text me today to have a dinner with me on Saturday night with the rest. I hope all can gather together. *wee*


Oh ya, between I have to thank all friends that wished me through Facebook, text me or anywhere. It really means a lot to me! I think there were at least 150 friends wished me on Facebook, really thanks a lot although some are only net friends but most of them are my "recognised friends". LOLz. This time am not going to list every single of them due to too many already. But sincerely from heart, thanks a million for the great wishes. I feel very warm and sweet, of course happy and excited when I replied all the messages on Facebook or even text.

Before I forgot, thanks to Jeff who had breakfast with me on Friday morning before I went to work. Haha..


By the way, I cut my hair. The first day I cut it, it was nice because Damien dried and blew it nicely. But after that, it's curl at the bottom. Sigh... He cutting too much already until my hair get quite short now. This picture doesn't look nice right? Hmm... I guess I will have to do relaxing or rebonding to my hair next month. Hopefully not too expensive. Kind of broke now. Sad sad.

*Ms. Nottie, read your blog, thanks very much babe~ Luv you~ Muacks~

Pre Birthday Gift

Ta~ Da~ Got this as my first birthday gift! Yea, got it really early, on last Sunday, from my hubby.

Garmin GPS~ Oh well, perhaps he knew that I'm very afraid of hunting roads around when I need to look for customers' houses. Haha..

Hmm.. At first he said he was going to buy me the Pitbull's VIP Concert tickets which fall on 15th May 2010. But due to I was way too sticky, hahahaha.. He got no chance to buy the tickets alone in order to give me such surprise. Anyway, thanks my beloved hubby! Love you lots! Never expecting such expensive present from you, I will keep it well!

Ended up he saw this on Low Yat forum, so decided to get me one. Hehe.. Well, I can said it's quite useful as compared to Pitbull's concert. Though I still feel like wanna go, but just knew that Pitbull only performs for one and a half hour, while the rest of time are other artists or bands or whatever larrrr.. Thinking that it's not worth it, finally decided not to go.

And I have a new plan on Saturday's night. Post birthday celebration. Ermm.. Was thinking not to go club at first but due to some reasons, hahaha.. nevermind, still going this year larr.. May be next year have to plan for something new or a simple dinner will do. Keke..

Apparently, I was a little too busy until I almost forgotten that my birthday is just around the corner! Hope that I can enjoy to the max with my friends, I love hanging out with bunch of friends. But don't think all friends can go, hopefully I will have small little time to spend with the rest. A small yam cha session also alright.

Ms. Nottie, are you going on Saturday's night? Why Keat only say him alone? Hmmmm...

M Busy

I was busy, from last week -Monday till Sunday- until this week; from Monday till now, today or even tomorrow, I am still busy! Why? Because it's "workaholic" period after Homedec 10.

Though it's quite tiring but I find it quite healthy lifestyle too. 'Coz I woke up earlier than usual like 7.30am/8am, depart from home around 8.30am/9am, attend for morning appointment, back to office, take lunch, busy completing my tasks, rush back to home around 3pm, go for another appointment with bro at evening, and then settle all, back to home, wash up, dinner, online for while/preparing quotation, about 11pm I'm ready to sleep. Wow~

Looking damn damn damn forward to my Saturday night and Sunday. My only relaxing days. Anywhere to go on Saturday night? Feel like wanna party hard, was damn stressed for the past 2 weeks. Exhausted. Having headache frequently, don't know what's wrong. Sunday wish to bring my small lil cute boy for a walk. I'm too busy to care about him for past 2 weeks.

Come on, I want trip! Or something relaxing. Any special activities out there?

There's some bad circumstances happened to my family. Sigh... How to settle that? Pening kepala saja~

Between, hope to get some part time thingy to do. But how leh? Or even something like blogshop? But have to save for some modal first. Don't know if it's a good idea. But gonna try la..

Life is so hard mann~

Challenge

Challenge starts tomorrow.

Challenge = Exhibition

Exhibition = Exhausted + Lifeless

Exhausted + Lifeless = Thursday till Sunday, 10am till 8pm

Arghhhh... Who can help me?

Today only I know, there are only me, my elder brother and younger brother, 3 of us ONLY, who need to take care for the whole booth for 4 days.

Friday, Saturday and Sunday are going to have really extremely crowded people. Ish...

See, I will have no time to eat. Very limited time. Bad for health!

Tonight I'm going to sleep earlier. Tomorrow have to wake up pretty early.

KL, sick of it. Got no parkings for me this afternoon. Stupid guard blocked the entrance for KL Convention Centre car park. Stupid asssssss!

Think of it, scared of it. You know what I mean?

I hate it

I hate it means I hate it!

They dirty my car seats! I just ask for a small request. Company pays for the fees to wash and clean my car seats. Can't you just say yes to me?

Originally my car is still new in condition, everything is good. But what happen to my car now?

All the paint cacated already because of the spray paint. And then, here my seats again.

You ask me to clean it with "tina"? Who the hell gonna help me to do so?

Ask those workers to clean? It will only become more worse.

End up I will be the one who clean myself. What's the point?!

!@$^&%$@!@@##$%^&&^#@!!!!!

I'm damn fucking dulan about it. New car becomes old car.

Fuck off fuck offffffffff!!!!!!!!!!!

Even you're my own brother, also I hate you for this time! Stupid!

People, tell me, how am I going to stand for another month or longer?

Argh!!!!!!! Who will understand my feeling?

Damn you, you never try to understand my feelings, my thoughts.

Busy

This week gonna be a real real busy week.
HOMEDEC Exhibition again!
Which mean I have to work on weekends again, and on Labour Day too!!
Argh, why on earth must held it on Labour Day where everyone is in holidays but I'm NOT!!
Sick of it, knowing it coming very soon by 1 more day to go. Another tired week!

GGGrrrrrr.... Another sad case. Myvistreet members are going for Ip Man 2 on this Saturday.
But.............. I can't join them due to the time slot is too late. 12am. Gotta let it go. >.<
Have fun guys.
But I will be going for Iron Man 2 with my hubby and younger brother on the same day.
Earlier show time, nearer place. Cool!!
I'm so want to watch Ip Man 2 leh...... Eeeeee.. May be on Monday night? Hehe..

Later I have to go to Sunway again. Damn shit, going to the same printing shop again. So sien, going there for few times already.
Tomorrow morning have to go somewhere in Puchong to return something.
Then, head over to Kuchai Lama to collect name cards for my brother.
Will be back to Sungai Buloh after that to take something.
Finally, going to KL Convention Centre to place the thing and get the credit card merchant and also for a briefing.

Thursday - Sunday
Exhibition starts operated!
Nonstop working for whole week.
My lovely weekends gone.
Have to go for sales again!
So-not-want-to-go-out-for-sales.

But I tell myself I have to bear with it.
Try to get more sales and earn more money.
Meanwhile, if possible, continue to search for jobs.
So-want-to-get-a-short-course-for-Adobe-Illustrator-and-Adobe-Photoshop.
Not forgetting personal make up course too.
All these need money, indeed!
Hope to start some business or whatever shit too.
Don't wish to stay on what I am now.
I have to move on!!

By the way, am quite scared of hunting roads.
Aiks... I want a GPS Garmin Garmin Garmin!!!!!!!!!

Hot

I'm currently at a place that is so so so so hot and stuffy!

It's like I'm staying in a sauna room.

What the hell to my office's air conditioner?

Only wind coming out but no cold air?

Damn fucked up with it! How to stand this kind of hot environment?

I sweat a lot already larrr... How good if I'm wearing a short now?

Unfortunately, I'm wearing a bloody long jeans. So uncomfortable with it.

Stupid place! Got a feeling that I want to go back home now!!!!!!

有好多说不出的不快乐

有好多说不出的不快乐．．
我内心的感受，就如同标题一样．
我只知道我很烦恼！
我可不可以逃避我的不快乐？
心里不断地挣扎，好辛苦哦！

Rust

My brain is rusting! How am I supposed to update my resume with this rusting brain?

Argh... I have no ideas what to write especially when I'm writing in the column of responsibilities or so called job scope. Damn it.. Where's all my writing skills?

Fyi, I went to Career Fair yesterday at Mid Valley. Any good news? No! I felt very dizzy as I stepped into the hall. The hall is fulled with crowds!

Looking at all the booths, on their company names, I have no idea what kind of companies they are. I saw a lot of banks are looking for candidates. But I'm not interested in working in bank industry, seriously.

The only one that was attracted me is Loreal Malaysia, but they only provide internship and management trainee. Intership? I'm not! How about management trainee? Heard my friend said they will throw you from one department to another department for certain periods. But the main concern is that the salary given usually is not that high. Well, I can't cope with that if the salary is unable to cover up my expenses.

So now what? Had lunch with my brother, he asked me about my job hunting progress. Hmm.. Nothing to tell, just don't know which field I should work in. Talking to him made me felt more stressed and depression, it's like I'm losing all my confidence in one shot. Because what he told me is right, yea, it's a fact that very cruel.

I don't reveal what he talked to me. But I will just keep thinking about it. Making a right decision is really hard. Because I don't even know what I'm doing right now is alright or not. Hmm.. I can say, I'm totally out of my mind. So what? I'm empty now!

I'm really struggling for my life, for a better future or as such.

God (I'm a Buddhist okay), I need a real guidance from you, please.

I'm sick.

金河

有蛮久的一段时间都没去过金河了.
因此,上个星期六我和巫先生去完扫墓后,我们便一同去了金河一趟.
我的电脑的语言系统有点问题,所以我无法把句号打出来.
去金河是有目的的,那就是寻找一把风力强的吹风筒.

哈哈...果然没错,让我找到了.
原价RM195折扣40%,所以是一百出头便把它带回家了.
虽然它不是什么有名的牌子,但功能上还算不错.

对了,我还在那儿看到许多批发的美容产品,可惜的是我不敢乱花钱.
许久没去逛金河,看见许多店铺都改为全场RM25.
当天还遇见一位男生正在寻找货源呢!
我也想做做生意,可是啊,没本钱,也没经验.我好失败哦!

过后,我带着我的巫先生去我们原定要去的地方吃东西.
我们去了Lot 10的food court试吃,因为那儿的食店都是出名好吃的才能在那里做生意哦.
巫先生吃鸡扒,我则吃淋面.味道还不错!好吃哦!

另外,我还买了一双高跟鞋,嘻嘻!
有史以来最高的一双,4寸,不知道什么时候才会穿出去,不过我超爱它!
最近迷上高高的高跟鞋.LOL

唯一一点不喜欢吉隆坡是因为塞车!!!!!!!!
巫先生,下次我们坐LRT去吧!since我们都很久没搭公共交通工具了.
回到家已经九点多了,不过我们还有2nd round,就是看电影.
因为clubbing取消了,所以也约了阿强哥去IOI mall看美丽密令.

看完后我们还去吃lok lok呢!
这一天的节目还真丰富,我都快累死了.
但,我过得很开心.谢谢巫先生!

Stressed

Stressed. Time getting less, where should I head to?
Until now, I haven't get any answers in my mind. Sigh...
How how how? Any jobs can intro to me?

I feel so panic. Resume not yet update. No recent passport-sized photo.
Most importantly, no idea on what I want to work. *damn*
Yet, still have many things that I wish to complete.
But without money, any of these is impossible to do.
Shit shit shit, please find me a job.

Forgive my broken english. I'm abit too tired today.
Kinda blur right now. And everything stuck in my head too.
Can't get them out. Why I feel so panic?
I'm like wasting a lot of time. Aiks.. What am I talking about?

How how how?
I started to regret on my decisions.
Decision when I chose this course. Decision on not further study.
Time can't revert back. What shall I do now?

Am I being too lack of self-confidence?

Need A Break

Can the clock stop tick tock tick tock there?
I need a STOP! Time, please stop for a while, at least for a moment okay?

I need some time to sort out something.
I need some time to refresh my mind.
I need some time to cool down myself.
I need some time to figure out what to do next.
Most importantly, I need some time to breathe!

Please, please, please, stop it for a while.

I'm just like being in the middle of the ocean.
I have no directions.
The waves push me to left and right, front and backward, and even drown me deep into the sea.
Who's the fisherman that passby with his boat to save me from this?
I think too much. LOL

坏心情

超级无敌差的心情……
我想这次会延续好久。
我是否自我压抑的太久了？
所以情绪才会瞬间爆发？

星期六绝对是不好的一天。
回头想想事发的经过，也许我有我的不对之处。
至少每次任何事情发生后，我会好好地反省自己。
但他们会这样吗？
算，我不和你们这些人计较！

有蛮久的一段时间，我都没像这次那么的生气。
真的连我都控制不到自己，他们真的过份了。
我的忍耐度是有极限的。

好了，事情告一段落。
只剩下一个月的时间，我需要从新开始。

Dead Bird

You know what, not long after I got home, my younger brother asks me to come out to have a look on something. So there I go, walk out to living room and go over to the carpet.

There's something on the carpet, from far I can't guess what it's at all, until I step closer and look into the things carefully. Gosh, I get shocked for a little while, because it looks like it's a incomplete dead body of a bird!

There's something looks like the claw of the bird, the beak and a wing (yes, one side of the wing), of course there's feathers as well. Eeeuuukkkkkkkk~ So disgusting larr!!!! It must be my mum's cat. Why the cat can eat things like this? *faint* Yucks!

Quite often, I see my mum's cat catches cockroach from outside and bring it back to my house. You know, I scare of cockroach leh.. Sometimes, the cat can bring back more than 3 cockroaches in one night. Of course, not in one shot. See, I think his catching skilsl is damn pro!

Between, I had seen cat ate lizard who stay on the wall, much higher than where the cat stood. And the cat aimed at the lizard gao gao, then the cat jumped and swallowed the lizard within few seconds. Eeeeeeeeeee.... I witnessed the whole process leh..

From today onwards, I think I have to separate my Mocha far far away from the cat. I don't want my Mocha to eat all those "live creatures".

Confused

Confused, confused, I'm so confused about the web thingy!

I know nothing about the web hosting, domain renewal and bla bla bla....

What are these all shits? I have no idea how to differentiate it okay?!

There was this company A, who did printing and IT previously. So they helped us to design my company website and registered for the domain name. While the web hosting thingy, they sent me a web where as there were 2 packages to be chosen. And so I chose to pay for 2 years web hosting which cost me cheaper via credit card. And then, there were still something like maintain the web content and company emails, each of it has their own different login IDs and passwords and so. I was quite confused that time but I managed to get it right for the web content management and email login. Still, about the registered domain name, all the related datas and stuffs, I really don't know about it.

And after one year which is now, the domain name is going to expire. And the company A is no longer in doing IT stuffs which they are only focusing in printing job. 2 months before the domain expire, I received a notification from company A. So I contacted them regrading this matter but they informed me that they don't do IT job anymore, thus they will pass me to another IT company. After few days, this fella from company B called me. I told him about the renewal and the search engine thingy. He explained to me through the phone telling me this and that, bla bla bla.... Talked very fast and the line was sucks, so I manged to get a little bit. He said he's not in KL now, but he will follow up this and send his colleague to meet up with me to discuss about the search engine thingy.

Right after this, I waited for his called or anything. Oh ya, EMAIL, he said he will email me! WTF, I got nothing at all after few weeks. I called up again, he told me that he needs to transfer all the details from previous company in order to proceed with it. Okay, I gave him time again. Wait, waiting and waited!! Another week past I guess, I called up again. This time he told me that the particular company for this domain renewal doesn't allow him to renew. Don't ask me why, I don't know. And he said he already submitted to that company, and will see how, he will get back to me again.

Then, here it goes. The domain name is going to expire next week, 18th of March. So what did I get? Nothing, no feedback. I'm gonna call this fella tomorrow and perhaps, I'm going to screw him up!! WTF, drag my time until so long and nothing has done. Between, I called up my friend to enquire about this. He said it takes some time to renew the same domain name after it's expired because others would have used that particular domain name! Oh gosh, he advises me to call this company, get help from them. May be have to create new one, trasnfer everything to here, but how about the design and layouts of the web? And not forgetting I paid RM400++ for 2 years web hosting wei!!! Damn it!! All messed up! Anyone could help me?

Another messed up thing, the account thingy. Alllaaaaaaa~~~~~~~ I'm not auditor or accountant please! Even the basic account knowledge that I learnt in form 4 and form 5 couldn't help, I forgot everything okay? I'm not meant to be an accountant seriously. I hate it so much. But guess what, I have to call up the firm to enquire something about their charges? Why they still need to charge us audit fee every month huh even we decided not to let them in charge of our case. Sigh.... Fine, I will call tomorrow, don't give much problems anymore.

IT and audit are not my expert fields. Thanks.

One of my ways to distress: shop, shop, shop! This ain't cool right? Somehow shop makes me feel good. LOL.. Else, let's do something to release stress? Haha.. Going to beach larrrr... So long never go to any beaches. I miss the touch of the sand, sound of the sea and the windy atmosphere, NOT forgetting the SUN! But I guess I never see any sunrise or sunset? Hmmmm.. Should go should go. Make a plan for me please! Arigato~

Psssttt, I spot nice dresses in this boutique's blog, which is located at Bangsar. Argh, feel like wanna have a visit there! But don't think Mr Boo allows. >.< Sad.

CNY

I've been through a quite busy-scheduled CNY.

It wasn't a happy one at first because of I quarreled with my mum. Don't blame me as I was really unable to bear with her not-understanding-at-all and some of her "own" principles.

And then, I went Genting and overnight there. It was really crowded during CNY.

The guard at the Casino still checked my Identity Card. LOL!! I'm wondering which year only they will stop checking me huh?! Hoho... I will try next year. Keke..

The rest of days I went shopping malls and house visiting.

Yesterday went back to office in the morning to get my "open work ang pao". Took my brunch and went home.

Today considers as the first working day on Tiger Year! Roaarrr....

I'm way too free. Nothing much to do and these two months after CNY normally is a non-peak season for our sector.

Oh ya, thought that I'm going to leave right after the end of February. And I was ready to be jobless for one month meanwhile trying to look for a new job. Who knows my brother asks me to help him first, that means my resignation will be delayed until further notice.

But seriously, bro, please makes the other plan of yours to be real one and get me out of here as soon as possible. Because I feel like I'm too useless in this company. Not deserve to get that paid.

I'm kinda sad 'cause of my one week holidays ended so fast. Aiks, have to back to reality!

Bad Day

I wish I could leave this place ASAP!

This morning, I rushed from my house to office, but LDP was jamming like hell with no reasons. It took me more than an hour to reach Sungai Buloh. Who the hell placed the factory so far, away from my house? Holly shit!!!! And the lorry almost wanted to kiss my ass too! WTF!

Feel damn moody today, even now I feel still the same! And I am super duper dislike this idiot laptop, don't know what's wrong with it. Must be the boss who did something with it and causing the settings in a mess now. The language bar supposedly stay at the tool bar but don't know what the heck with it, it can't be located at that anymore. Plus sometimes when you wrongly press shift button, then it will switch to Chinese language and caused the fonts become weird.

Sigh..... If it's not because of my brother, I don't think I will stay here that long. Today is really a bad day! Everything is in a mess. I can't bear with the people here. I can't bear with the road condition here. I can't bear with the environment here. It's just not suit me at all. Why am I need to squeeze myself into this little shit world? Everything also throws to me as if I'm the super general worker here with such low salary? I hate myself for being too free sometimes, that I'm dare not to request for increasement.

I feel really really bad sometimes. I don't think I'm not capable at all. Why I need to deal with these people? Ish... How fast can the Chinese New Year come? Or how fast can the week pass? I don't wish to come back anymore. Every morning I wake up, I also feel damn no mood to go to work. Every time I reach office, the only thing I think about is how fast can the time pass, so that I can reach home earlier?!

Don't throw everything to me at once. It makes me can't breathe. You're in a rush, so do I too. I need a way to release myself. Quite moody these few days. There are something, which is not comfortable and depression, in my heart and my mind, that I always keep thinking and worrying about, yet I can't solve it. Times needed.

The only thing that makes me looking forward every week is my Friday because my beloved one will come back from outstation every Friday. How good if I could see him everyday? Life isn't that good afterall. I hate it. Wrong place for me!

Please, please, please, get me out of here ASAP!!! I want to quit!

Gone

Guess what, my desktop had been certified to death yesterday. My hard disk happened to be death and it's hard to replace back the same old model of hard disk. Thus, it ended his own life after servicing me for 3 years plus. Argh.... Here my main problem comes!! Days without computer, I think I will be suffering now onwards.

My desktop gone, equal to all my entertainments gone, equal to lifeless. See, it shows how important a computer is in human beings daily life. Again, anyone can help me? Where can I find extra income please? I need money urgently now! I'm planning to buy a laptop, no more desktop.
At least I will have more space on my table. Not like now, stupid heavy monitor gets half of my table space and the CPU too!

This few nights I'm going to spend my time to clean my room. Time to clear off the dust and rubbish as Chinese New Year is coming! Still, no excited feeling, but am anticipating it to come because I need holidays!

Shopping Spree

Yeah, it's my shopping time again! But now I'm damn poor already. >.<

I went over to One Utama on last Saturday. Unable to buy the heels that I spotted, sold out when I reached. Shit.. Aiks... But I managed to get the puffy sleeve shirt from Cotton On! Tee Hee.....

Bought nothing much but felt like I spent a lot for it? Hmm... The values of Ringgit Malaysia too small larr.... Plus all the stuffs in the market are getting more pricey. Sigh....

One thing I was unable to get for my lovely son, Mocha, his favorite cheesy stick. Went over to a few outlets of Petsmore, still out of stocks. However, I finally found the previous missing pack in my fridge. Lols... Lucky Mocha, got his snack again. Haha...

Ohh, I met Joy too. Just got her new hairstyle done! Hehe.. And Sunday was my turn!

Alright then, I promised to gift Mr. Boo a belt for his late Christmas present. We saw one studded belt from Armani Exchange which costs RM300, nice but too expensive! Later on, went into Guess, found two similar designs which look not bad but ran out of size. Asked the cashier to check the size availability at other outlets. Got it at other states shopping malls, Alamanda Putrajaya, Bukit Tinggi Klang and etc. We decided to go Alamanda!

From One Utama to Alamanda, finally we got our target item! Bought the belt and spotted the latest male watch. It's super duper nice mann~~ Very nice design which reflects a very strong and tough feeling, perfect for man. Guess what, I checked out the price, RM869. Hmmmmm..... You will think that it's expensive right? But I think it's worth for a watch! Seriously, I like it so much. How good if I could own it? Hahahhahahhaa....

Sunday, back to One Utama again. Went to Infinity and looked for Damien to gao dim my hair and of course, Danny. Cut my hair, dye my hair, highlight my hair. Cut his hair, color his hair as well. Spent few hundreds for hairdo. Left not much money. Time to go home!

Too many items in my wishlists. Can't fulfill all in short time. Haha...

Oh ya, I do check out the new Forte from Kia. The exterior and interior are all cool! And the price also quite reasonable. RM80k ++ only for full specs. But I don't know if it's okay for the engine. Overall I'm satisfied with it. May be I shall aim it for my next target? Lols... Think too much but I know I can do it!

Time

Time passed so fast. Now already year 2010. Can't believe it!

A brand new year started. But I got no special feeling towards this brand new year.

Perhaps, I'm too anticipated waiting for Chinese New Year to come.

After Chinese New Year, there will be new turning point in my life again. Yea, again.

I will change to another new job again. To me, changing a new job isn't a cherish thing to be happened to me because I feel like I'm not staying long with any of my jobs.

That's why I'm quite worried about it. However, I've to say that may be I just haven't find the right direction for myself yet. That's why I keep looking and looking.

During this period, I'm quite headache with myself because I can't find a perfect solution for myself till now. What am I going to do next? God, give me some clues please.

Chinese New Year's coming, I got lot of stuffs to buy!! But I got not enough money leh.. Where can I get extra income??

I went to One Utama yesterday for window shopping. Sad, really window shopping. I saw a pair of white color heels at Viss, love it so much~ It looks elegant! Hmmmmmmm.... Spotted few things that I like. T.T But I can't buy it. Damn~

Okay, another thing, I need to cut my hair before CNY. And I'm thinking to dye my hair again. Asked the price already, RM200++...... I want to change a new hair color, may be something like purple?! Haha....

Ohh, most importantly, I need to get my darling a new belt. And I know he spotted one Renoma Polo Shirt too. Argh.....

Mocha

我带Mocha去修毛了，现在变成帅帅的，眼睛看起来也比较大！

现在的它已经六个月大了，不再是baby的样子了，开始有adult狗狗的感觉了。

六个月大，依然那么调皮，不过我还是那么爱它！hehe..