Thursday, September 30, 2010

原来

我的心在落大雨,甚至连我整个人也想落大雨.

焦虑,不安,心烦,低落,不知如何是好,我不清楚我到底是怎样.

今早的面试,是有史以来令我感觉到超级无敌高的挫败感!

我第一次在面试中表现得那么的紧张和僵硬,根本不知道我在做些什么.

我一直以为我自己表现得蛮不错,还不至于太差的程度,谁知这一趟真的大受打击.

或许我真的不够好,可是我难以接受,还是我太自以为是呢?

很多时候,我都会缺乏自信心,明明我搞得定的东西,我会对自己自我怀疑.

一连去了三间公司面试,但似乎还没找到适合的.

是我太挑剔,还是我不信任我自己?

或者,我适应了现公司的环境和人事,我害怕去尝试新事物?

我很烦,烦到我想逃离这一切,可以吗?

过渡期,我过不了. 怎样过?

巫先生,我想见到你的脸,见到你,我会感得比较好.

可惜你不在我身边...

我只好用眼泪去发泄我的情绪,我又要把这一切放在心里面,关上锁头.

原来我是脆弱的...

1 comments:

Anonymous said...

You always have us. When your boo is not around, our shoulder is there for you.

Everyone will have their very depress moment like how I used to have. But believe me, you can go through it. It is just a matter of time.

Give yourself some time, some space to re-organize your schedule, to rebuild your confidence.

You have my word there. Always supporting you no matter what happen.

I am here and always be here for you.

Loves
-Toi-